We thought of you today, But that is nothing new; We thought about you yesterday, And will tomorrow too. We think of you in silence And make no outward show, For what it meant to lose you Only those who love you know. Remembering you is easy, We do it every day It's the heartache of losing you, That will never go away. - you are loved and sadly missed by all you family and friends. Love Mom Mom and Pop Pop Ricca
Some time ago a mother punished her 5 year old daughter for wasting a roll of expensive gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and she became even more upset when the child used the gold paper to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree.
Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift box to her mother the next morning and said, "This is for you, Momma."
The mother was embarrassed by her earlier over reaction, but her Anger flared again when she opened the box and found it was empty. She spoke to her daughter in a harsh manner. "Don't you know, young lady, when you give someone a present there's supposed to be something inside the package?"
She had tears in her eyes and said, "Oh, Momma, it's not empty! I blew kisses into it until it was full."
The mother was crushed. She fell on her knees and put her arms around her little girl, and she begged her forgiveness for her thoughtless anger.
An accident took the life of the child only a short time later, and It is told that the mother kept that gold box by her bed for all the Years of her life. Whenever she was discouraged or faced difficult problems she would open the box and take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.
In a very real sense, each of us, as human beings, have been given a Golden box filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, family, friends and GOD. There is no more precious possession anyone could hold.
Good memories! / Michelle Occhi (4th cousin )Read >>
Good memories! / Michelle Occhi (4th cousin )
Hi Steve, I don't know if you remember me to well, but I remember you the most at Emily's Communion. You took Emily and I to the tire swing down in the woods and pushed us for a long time! I will never forget swinging high up over the creek and spinning untill we were dizzy! It was very fun and I enjoyed it very much. I was very sad when I found out that you were gone but then I thought, your in a better place now, watching down over us, and maybe even pushing other kids on tire swings in heaven with you. The last time I was at your house for Rina's Graduation, I was sad that you weren't there to push Emily and I on the swing. But the way your mom and dad had all the pictures of you set up at your house I felt like you were right there with us, having a good time too! Your family all loves you and is missing you very much, wishing you were still here so please watch over them.
since you've been gone / Rina Marie The 3rd Read >>
since you've been gone / Rina Marie The 3rd
•emily grew inches and inches!•
•dad doesnt go out working as much•
•mom prays alot more•
•the butter knives and sharp knives are just thrown into the same section instead of seperating them•
•im more emotional then i've ever been in my whole life•
•i now always say how i really feel•
•i take time to notice everyday lilttle things and aprciate them more•
•we've all changed alot. personality wise because of your death•
•i've stopped bitting my nails•
•dad will stay in his pj's un till 2pm sometimes•
•dad watches tv during the day•
•emily is an A+ student! (except she could really use your help in math, you were the only one who got tha stuff)•
•nothings been the same•
•never fully happy•
•theres always something missing•
• • Close
I just got done reading what Rina Jr. wrote about her and Emily. I am so glad that they have each other. Emily is a blessing to this family and I believe it is her spirit that is connecting us to Steven here on earth. I cannot believe that the holidays are approaching. It is not the same and I am so frustrated that we cannot all be together. I will be wearing my Steven button all through the holidays to honor him and everything he meant to this family. I am thankful everyday that I was able to spend those summers with him and because of that bond, he will always be a part of my life.
(sigh) 11/9/05 / Rina (Mom)
I walk into my bedroom, to one of the drawers that holds my son's personal things and open it. I look at his cell phone, the numbers worn off and taped together, he used it so much. I glance at his favorite cologne, pick it up and close my eyes to smell "him". It's all I can do to not bust out in deep sobs and tears! I walk into the girls' bedrooms, still holding the cologne (tend to be forgetful), I just stand in their rooms, picturing the life that still exists in them daily; full of laughter, love, sorrow, tears, sickness and health and quiet slumber. I think how precious their lives are and how much they are loved. And I imagine Steven, how his life left permanent imprints on our hearts and memories. So much love and how he is still a part of our family and lives. How, as a mother, one of the greatest joys is knowing your children are alive and growing right before your eyes. He is gone. His physical presence is no more. I hold his life in my heart, so dear. I realize I am holding on to Rina's blanket, my hands engulfed with his cologne. Ooops! It must be all over Rina's blanket now. I forget in the hustle and bustle of our lives that I left Steven's "smell" on her blanket and forget to warn her. Our hope is to receive a sign that he is okay. Happy. But I know my son, he's in heaven and knows we will be together again. We are a family, a team and we are all okay. Close
ATTN: read Today Tonight the one below 1st! / Rina Marie The 3rd Read >>
ATTN: read Today Tonight the one below 1st! / Rina Marie The 3rd
Im not crazy!!
It's now 1:35am and i just woke mom up. actually, i scared the crap out of her but not on purpose (sorry mom) anyways, i told her i smelled steven and she said “ohhh i was holding the bottle of stevens cologone early and was sitting on your bed.” then, a big grin was on my face, and shes like “yea youre not that lucky” then i said “good im not crazy but next time can you tell me when you do that”
so thats that, maybe i can sleep now Close
today and tonight / Rina Marie The 3rd
early me and em saw elizibethtown.. it was cute. before we went in we got those photobooth pictures done. these came with 2 copies instead of one. after the movie i asked em if she wanted to stop by stevens grave, at first she said no but the she quickly changed her mind and said we should give steven a copy. so we stopped in wawa got a plastic bag, first we wrote a letter on the back of it, then put it in the bag and tied it to his grave. we then had handfulls of bird seed and each with fist full of the bird seed raised our hands and spun in circles yelling how we love him and miss him. it was nice.
its now 1:07am and i cant sleep, i thought i smelled stevens cologne but then it quickly went away, so i said to myself nah. a few mins later i turned sides and smelled him again, this time the scent stayed longer. maybe im just imagining this but to tell you the truth im a bigggg baby and get scared at stuff like that. so its not like i wanna smell him. im even thinking bout crawling in bed with mom or em. anyways, i said out loud “i love you, but you know how i am so go bother mom.” haha. i hope no one thinks im crazy because of this. Close
family pictures / Rina Marie The 3rd
It's time to get them done this year. Weird how the last time we all wore black. We all kind of blended in together with the exception of our heads. This year we should all wear bright colors. I'd like us to all hold a favorite picture of steven with a big smile! I want people to look at the picture and say. wow they still look happy and strong even after Steven died. I can tell you right now though i'll be tearing up just thinking of how Steven not there with us and all we have are pictures. Steven and I would fight everytime we got our pictures taken.. mainly because i didnt want him touching me.. like my shoulder or something.. how silly. Also, it would take forever to get them done due to Stevens lack of smiling. He really was the worst at taking pictures. anyways i just hope the pictures turn out great.
does anyone have any other ideas on how we can include butthead in our pictures? Close
MY CHILD / SELMA FLYNN(POMC) BOBBO.MEMORY-OF.COM (FRIEND)
On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious child, Close
Expresses our feelings so well! / Rina (Mother)Read >>
Expresses our feelings so well! / Rina (Mother)
Who You'd Be Today by Kenny Chesney
Sunny days seem to hurt the most I wear the pain like a heavy coat I feel you everywhere I go I see your smile I see your face I hear you laughing in the rain I still can't beleive you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young Like the story that had just begun But death tore the pages all away God knows how I miss you All the hell that I've been through Just knowing no one can take your place Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams? Settle down with a family? I wonder what would you name your babies? Some days the sky's so blue I feel like I can talk to you And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died too young Like the story that had just begun But death tore the pages all away God knows how I miss you All the hell that I've been through Just knowing no one can take your place Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today Today... Today... Today... Today... Today... Today...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most I wear the pain like a heavy coat The only thing that gives me hope Is I know I'll see you again some day Someday... Someday... Someday...
Well, I survived my surgery, rotator cuff, and my right arm's still imobolized, see the surgeon Monday for the f/u from surgery. Today we are attending Steven's best friend's wedding. Steven would have been best man. I keep saying to them, "he still is!" I'm a little edgy, between the pain of the surgery & the pain in my heart. I want to be there to represent Steven & am happy to still be thought of. It means alot. It's so unfair. Steven would have loved this day - he loved to celebrate among loved ones and friends. I can see him beaming with excitement and really enjoying himself. Our oldest daughter, Rina, turned 23 yesterday. We celebrated in the usual ways. She is a little freaked out she's older than her older brother now. I tell her she isn't (his 24th birthday was 8/19). They were very close. When she woke up yesterday, wearing one of his favorite shirts, I knew what she was thinking. We cried. I found the perfect card for her from Steven. It basically said how lucky he was the two of them grew up together. I knew she loved it. After the cry, the rest of her day was a happy one. She says nothing will ever be the same and truly happy. There will always be a vein of grief and sadness hidden behind everything. Well, thank you for letting me rattle on and I hope everyone is able to find peace and happiness amid the peaks and valleys of this journey....
I was on my way to school this morning and it was a cloudy, rainy sort of day. I kept looking at the sky and watching how the sun was trying to peer over the clouds on top of the mountains. The light was so golden and bright and all that I could think of was you, Steven. I had to take a deep breath and think of your beautiful soul. I miss you and want you to know that I think of you during those moments as well as the boring, mundane moments of my life. I feel so blessed to have known you and proud to call you my nephew. I will see you again.